Bonnie hides under my desk during a thunderstorm. She fell asleep with her head on my feet.
I love my dog.
I just got done playing at my home town M15 pre-release, and now I’m listening to the Moulin Rouge soundtrack because I have feels.
Go ahead, judge me. Shake your head Dave. Squeel in delight Mrmn and Alex. I don’t even care.
…so yeah. M15 thoughts!
A.) I really like the new card frame. It looks crisp.
B.) M15 does seem like a sweet set, and kinda deep for a core set. I was legimately unsure of what exactly to do with my sealed pool. I went red/blue because it seemed the best of what I got.
C.) I had an enjoyable opponent, it was her first magic tournament! Those always excite me, I love to be a good ambassador of the game, and promote the game.
D.) I did not hold back, but she played well. She beat me, but we both had a good time.
I’m hoping I can snag a booster box for my birthday some how, and while I would really love to draft with my homies, I doubt I can wrangle something together. The jerkface dilemma has taken a lot of pep out of my step, but maybe I’ll bounce back. I’m starting to transition from lots o’ sad, to cranky and peeved.
Progress people. Now I’m going to go have some more feels and attempt the natural condition known as sleep.
Let’s talk about negativity.
Negativity is one of humanity’s greatest muses. Think about it. Where do most blog posts come from? Poetry, literature, plays, etc. So much of what we write, is a release valve from pent-up negativity. Why am I writing this post? The same reason why my first post in months is one of depression. Negativity stirs our emotions, and has to have release valves.
you have jace
Garruk and Liliana
Gideon and Chandra
This is my favorite post on Tumblr. Although Venser was a low blow.
July. Quite the busy month for me. My family alone has 7 birthdays in July, counting myself.
It’s also always a time of depression, and maybe more accurately - a solemn mood for me. I don’t know exactly why it happens every year, but it always does. It could just be a predictable thing that I put myself into. It could be all the stress of life, a hectic month, and various other things.
I do know what thing that’s been keeping me a little blue lately. Friends, friendship, and a true lack of deep love/loyalty. Let’s take a brief moment to hear my condensed life story.
I am an only child, my parents fought a lot when I was a kid. I was shy, reserved, and had low self-esteem. I constantly talked to myself, and thought out loud. I’ve always been a little over weight, and was made fun of at school, and jokingly by some friends. Like I said, no self-esteem.
I’ve come a long way, and honestly consider myself to have a pretty good and healthy life. I’ve lost weight over the years, eat well, and go to the gym regularly. I have a wonderful wife, a sweet dog, and a large social circle. However, I’ve begun to realize over the last couple years of my 20’s, that while I’ve increased the quantity of my friends, the quality hasn’t really caught up.
I consider myself a good friend, a damn good one in fact. I put others needs above my own, I always enjoy hosting and helping others. I almost never flake out, or put my own self-satisfaction over enjoying time with others. I guess you could say, I take the “treat others how you would like to be treated”, pretty literal. I always thought more people would adhere to that. Naive, huh?
Adulthood is a real bitch, and no amount of advice or wisdom will ever prepare you for it. Bills, death, and the constant checking of schedules really tax you. I’ve always tried to take all those things in stride, and still make a strong effort to maintain strong relationships with everyone. I just find myself feeling lonely a lot, always trying to schedule time with people, and never feel like anyone really is bursting at the seams to hang out with me.
It’s shitty man.
It’s a cruel phase in life, when you spend every weekend of summer over at your buddies house, and when you become an adult - you have to schedule every little session of friendship. Why do we let that happen? I feel like an insane person beating against the metaphorical padded wall.
I guess, if there is any lesson to my fable here - make time for people. A lunch date, a phone call, a trip to the grocery store. Even a little bit means a lot to people. I guarantee everyone has that lonely friend, who just wants to love you and enjoy your company.
I have been getting a lot of feedback on the new website and I want to collect it in one place.
I am looking for polite, constructive feedback explaining what isn’t working or is missing. I am not looking for generic complaining. Tell me things that need to be fixed so that we can fix them.